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Friday, November 26th, 2004
1:22 pm
[radicaltina]
Don't read ahead...just do it in order! It takes about three minutes...it's worth a try :)

First..get a pen and paper. When you actually choose names, make sure it's people you actually know and go with your first instinct.

Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read ahead or you'll ruin it!

1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a column.














2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.












3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex.












NO LOOKING AHEAD...OR IT WON"T TURN OUT RIGHT!




4. Write anyone's name (like friends or family....) in the 4th, 5th,

and 6th spots.












5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11.












GO WITH YOUR INSTINCT PEOPLE!!!!




6. Finally, make a wish.













And now the key for the game.....






1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people about this game.













2. The person in space 3 is the one that you love.












3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't work out.












4. You care most about the person you put in 4.













5. The person you name in number 5 is the one who knows you very well.













6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star.













7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3.












8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7.













9. The tenth space is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.













10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life
12:58 pm
[radicaltina]
meow!
thorn's in her side:

i said i could love the pebbles in my shoe;
i said it, so i won't take it back.
you're not what i want, and not what i need;
there's more then a world we lack,
but i stay here holding your hand.
i know if i leave i'll have no one else;
i'm not one in high demand.

you call me darling, you call me dear;
i look at you, and see nothing at all,
you lean over in hope to make my lip stick smear;
i push you back in disgust,
why don't you appeal to me any more?

i'm still just as fickle as before;
i warned you a long time ago,
and yet you still wanted to take this chance.
if i make any sudden moves it will be my fault;
what can i do?
i think you're stupid for loving me so;
but i'm the fool for letting you,
a lose lose situation, and we've both fallen in this abyss.

i am nothing, so why see anything in me?
the more i hate you, the more you pull me close;
you're a stubborn child that see's love in all beings,
why waste such pure emotions on something dirty like me?

i am as pretty as a petal less rose;
there is nothing to love except a wilted steam, and thorns.
you hold me so gently, in your scared up hands;
i've cut you so many times with me carelessness...

so why stay with me?
push me in my own puddle of tears;
it's where i deserve to be...
but yet you place me above the world as well as yourself;
you'd die for me if you had the chance,
that made me want out even more...if you only knew.

i have to say this once;
i'm over you completely.
so don't mark me as vain, don't call me fickle,
you can call me by my name;
i know it's hard to say,
in the end it will be okay...
or will it?

so...

all i can say is, i'm sorry;
in the end it won't be good enough,
even though you said it was fine;
and we could carry on being only friends,
you can't stare me in the face any more;
i know this is the end...

the end of our friendship, the end of our love, it's our end;
so disconnect from me, and if you want fade away,
but you'll recover in time.

~me...
Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
9:49 am
[radicaltina]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | "i read you letters, to feel better" ]

i had to walk home today...


and you know what! it was raining today, but not just rain it was windy too...it will never surprise me...it will NEVER. why does my mom forget me? why am i forgotten? i'm not good enough to be one of her pointless thoughts? i feel pointless to her.

i told her to pick me up, but i knew she wouldn't. i could of got another ride...i know i could of...it's just...i want her to notice me walk in the house shivering, and dripping wet...i want her to see what she forgot! i want her to see ME.




my rant.
my life story.
the end.
Monday, October 18th, 2004
6:21 pm
[radicaltina]
old thoughts dance in the back of my mind. tears that have been shed for the same reasons linger around my eye lashes once more...i'm back to were i started, and that's no where.

(to someone i use to care for with all my heart) now it's only a void.

you're the pointless person:

you're lacking substance in your mind;
the ugly faces you see are really your own,
you can't stop to help, but you can to scorn;
your so impudent for an insecure fool,
how i wish you were never born.
this world thinks your lovely, i use to too,
but i can see beyond, for i see your horns.

i am the same, but i know what i am;
(i'm no longer sane)
so why don't you think your pointless,
for you are the greater void in this world.
why don't you hate yourself;
is it because you have a gun,
that you point at everyone, but yourself...
(i wish you'd shoot your pride)

you think you're so high above me;
but you don't know we're up against the same wall,
and we share the same grave;
for we have sinned the same sin,
and we deserve nothing but hell.

i think you should fall;
hit your head, let in knock sense in there.
sit down, why stand so tall?
you're a cripple now;
so don't try to hide the fact you're missing your spine!
you can't get by me, i know you to well.
i also know your only aim in life is down;
i want you to leave with out making a sound,
so let me cut your vocal cords.

i wish you could see your soul;
over the passing years it's become dull,
hold it up to the morning light, and you still won't see any shine.
but you'll see the cracks and flaws;
maybe you'll want to fix them before you rot.
(to bad you're dead to me)

every breath you took while i loved you;
was one more second you let pandora's box out unto me,
you helped corrupted my mind as well as the world;
so now we have to suffer from what you did,
this is all from you, and cause of you.
why make us cry tears that you've already shed?
i'm tired of everything you put me through!
just STOP!
stop, and look;
look what you've done to me, and your world.

you've broken your connections;
you've broken my heart,
so now you have nothing to run to.

~me...how i loved you.

Current Mood: horny
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
4:11 pm
[radicaltina]
meow!!!
Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
1:06 pm
[radicaltina]
hello...i'm tina...and um...you should join, only cause i'd love you forever!
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